IN HER OWN WORDS

S's Story: A Rap Song

I used to hide in the dark, but now I really see 
that the darkness was a lie hidden deep inside of me
I felt like I was looking out a window with no glass
I mean, I felt powerless 
but that stuff doesn’t last—especially if it’s already in your past 
And sitting inside these four walls
I can’t even explain, the pain going through my veins 
and the things trapped inside my brain 
I pushed through, but that s#!t was bulletproof 
It’s hard to get attached to people in that place
But when you do, there’s a lot of things you’ve got to face 
Because a part of your heart doesn’t get enough attention 
And when it does, somethin’ always breaks the connection 
And yeah, people are going to want to fail or just bail
So, you can choose to let it define you, confine you, trap you, or outshine you
Hey there haters, might even make a fake @$$ rap about you—but what are you gonna do?
Just say goodbye b!*%# and leave it all behind 
You forget the rest, just be your best 
Even when people grade you like a test
Because what the heck, haters are the F 
I’ve been through s#!t you can’t even imagine 
You could put your mind to it, but it’s not gonna happen 
I have been locked up, beat up, put down, let down, lied to, tossed around, drained out, messed up, drugged up, and even thrown out 
But look where I’m at now--
I’m at the top, with the m***** f***ing crown